Silent Warrior

“Fibromyalgia is a painful chronic disease that affects the musculoskeletal system. The cause of fibromyalgia is not yet known, and much about the condition remains a mystery”

https://fibromyalgia.newlifeoutlook.com

Waking up one day in the worst pain I ever felt in my life was one of the scariest moments i’ve ever had to face. Not knowing what was wrong, barely being able to move and feeling like everything was falling apart was probably to date the worst feeling. It took months for the doctors to come up with a diagnosis, and when they uttered the word Fibromyalgia, I had no idea what that meant. Quickly however, it became all to clear that this was going to dictate my life for years to come.

To this day, no one really knows what causes it. Why the pain comes on, or how long it’s going to last. No doctor can give me a solution for the pain, nor can they offer any kind of relief. There are mornings when I wake up in so much pain that I don’t know if i’ll be able to function. The stiffness, joint pain, bone pain, fatigue, headaches and sensitivity to temperatures makes normal daily activities almost unbearable. Mornings when I have to mentally prepare myself to start getting ready, because I know the shower i'm about to take will take almost all of the energy I have, have become the new norm.

Most people don’t know that I deal with this condition because I don't talk about it often, and most don’t even know what it is. The invisible disease as it is sometimes referred to, since you can't see it, but you sure can feel it. 

Life however doesn’t stop and I still have goals to achieve and things I want to experience in life. So each and every day I wake up, put on a smile and take on the day like the Warrior that I am. You can’t tell that I suffer because I refuse to let it show, but know that getting through each day is a struggle that I deal with silently. 

I want to use part of my blog to bring more awareness to this disease. To have discussions with others who deal with it. Finding new ways to cope, and being a support system in a world that most don’t understand. 

For those that suffer like I do, I understand!